(:
friends are everywhere but wanting to find ones that treasure is tough
frankly speaking , i treasure those who treasure me definitely .
friendship is thicker den blood
LOVES .

talk about love i donnoe what's that .
stumbled and fall .
so what now
i gotta hang on and work hard on that
not gonna try different direction .
love me, i love u more
i donnoe how i derive the love .
but as long as the love is in my blood ,
how am i going to give up like so easily ?
somebody like me is ...
( stubborn )
i cant describe myself also .
let you judge ba
there is so much things i wan you to know
i'm always here and i will always be here to support you .
as much as i hate love as much as i love you .
dont ask me to give you up
you know ,
i cant possibly do that

3:52 PM

did a personality test ..
No other type is as loving, attentive, and committed a partner as you. Many authors describe your type as the most personable and endearing of all: caring, sensitive, and always making sure that others are comfortable in your presence. For you, investing a lot in your relationship, and totally committing yourself to another person goes without saying. You enjoy assuming responsibilities, and that applies to your partnership, as well. When you encounter hic-ups in your relationship, the first things you look for are ways to change yourself.

You were born with the need to take care of the person you love most - to the best of your ability - and to do everything to make him/her comfortable. You create a comfortable home with the feeling of security and intimacy for both of you. To please and surprise your partner, you have an astounding sense for sharing small and frequent signs of your love. Your antenna for his/her needs is almost eerie, and sometimes you almost trip over yourself with eagerness when it is important to you to meet his/her needs. In the long run, your own needs are frequently neglected when you have a partner who prefers taking over, or who does not care for you as sensitively as you care for him/her.

Any partner is going to be overwhelmed by your sensitive and exuberant nature. Because you often like to talk about things close to your heart you are not stingy with compliments and assurances of your love. You are the most emotional and passionate of the Realists. The power of your feelings often carries you away. With you, this is not just lip service because you also prove your love with deeds. Whoever is with you can always rely on you. Your fidelity and loyalty toward your partner are extraordinary and unshakeable. Comparative studies have often indicated that Social Realists lead the list of the sixteen types in the durations of their marriages. For you, a relationship represents a life-long obligation; you don’t enter into it lightly and expect stability and reliability from your partner, as well. If you are disappointed, it hurts you even more than any other of the personality types.

Work personality test ..
The Social Realist is the most social among all personality types. For you, it is essential to choose a profession where you can deal with as many people as possible. You recharge your batteries with the help of people contact and the personal exchanges needed for your very special talents to unfold. You are the prototype of the caring person in the positive sense, because you love to act on behalf of others and care for them. If you have the impression that there is a way to contribute by improving the quality of their life, it satisfies you more than anything.

For your type, the feeling to be needed, loved, and appreciated is more than vitally necessary. Therefore, working in seclusion is not for you. It is just too much counter to your extroverted nature, and your need for interpersonal interaction.You have the best ideas during dialogues with others, as they stimulate your creativity. Instead of developing abstract aid projects with the help of a drawing board, you prefer to engage yourself on the frontlines with person to person contact. For you, it is important to see the results of your work so you can go home feeling that you (again) made the world a better place - at least a bit.

You are a born team player. You are open and communicative, easily integrating yourself into group hierarchies. For your personality type, harmony is the keyword in your personal, as well as in your professional life. Since conflicts and power struggles seriously stress you making it difficult for you to attend to your tasks, you should put your emphasis on working in a stress free, respectful, and affectionate environment. Working environments continuously affected by tough infighting, and where competitive conflicts are intense represent too great a strain.

I M ALL THESE
extroverted, practical, sentimental, planning, emotional, temperamental, energetic, tradition-conscious, loyal, helpful, devoted, reliable, caring, objective, thorough, organised, warm-hearted, open, friendly, sociable, chummy, obliging, self-sacrificing, public-spirited, sensitive, kind, demanding

11:05 AM

i ought to be stronger .
i needa prove .
the most challenging is to overcome everything even myself .
i not going to plunge anymore further .
a failure isnt always a failure .
i need to find out the value in myself .
to glow is not to hide .
i will not hide anymore .
being independent and alone isnt tt bad . for ,at least i am overcoming it now .
in due time . i would stop being dependence
eliminate my kid " mindset "
everyone is selfish .
i'm evolving to one to ( do i have a choice ? i wonder .)
isit becaue i m not living in a world full of passionate and kind people
i dont understand why everyone is comparing .
the one i love most , my parents .
they are comparing also .
it's okay. seriously .
comparing is improving .
stress is nothing to them cos it's only on the suface .
but they wont understand they are causing an impact to me .
i m losing my naive-ness
and gradually, i cant be one anymore .
those who ask me not to live in my own fairytale world , u hv no wrong actually
my thinking are too simple , it's bringing me nowhere
i need to be brave
i learnt alot , everytime i fall i start to gain some experience .
every fall seems to tell me something
i shall learn every single bit of them and be sucessful .
wrong concept, mayb .
but im still trying (:

i cant care anymore .
i need not be push to walk an inch .
i shall walk alone .
bravely and confidently .
and jus be myself .
i'm tired for chaging myself to suit one's world .
i tried very hard seriuosly to find a comfort zone .
but everywhere seems umcomfort to me .

i tear easily , i dont know why.
a small lil setback , a break up , touching scene in drama & movie
i tear .
the more i need to be in someone embrace , the more i sense no one is there to hold me .
i am sorry , it's my nature .
tt doesnt mean i m weak (:

achieving goal , earn as much money now is my goal .
and of cos MAKE UP and skincare is still my forte .
i would like to touch on tt .
i wan everyone to be as pretty as possible .
you know in this world u cant afford to be lazy .
LOOK is everything , for at least the most basic thing u must have apart from having a good personality .

as far as i know my grandma need someone to take care now .
she'll be occupying my house real soon .
i dont mind actually .
my house will be more crowded (:
i dont know how would it be like ..
i might be sharing room with my bro and i shall say goodbye to my queen size bed .
been sleeping in luxury for this eight years time .
it's time for some hardship .
GAMBATTE JOANNE . ( encouraging myself , HAHA )

emotion really trigger me alot .
i shall not let that affect me .
i guess i need enough strength to combat all these

24hr after my operation , my jaw really swollen .
shocked when i look intio mirror .

i've learnt alot through training and how skin functions .
i enjoy learning .
(:

god telling me i am getting better .

konichiwa gozaimasu ,
nice day everyone .

3:52 PM

geek .
i'm back

shopping spree wib my lovely colleague .
nice trip
bought only a top@ ADDICTS! fareast .
apparels there are quite costly

70 bucks gone instantly once i finish polishing my tooth .
operation for my wisdom tooth next week probably .
sounded scary thou .
but i will be fine in another two weeks time.

this timing i should be soundly asleep .
however i am awake cos the gum near my wisdom tooth swell .
so pain plsssssssssss !

my heart belong to my baby

12:16 AM

JET BLACK is my hair colour now .
distinguish among all asian i doubt you can find me on street anymore .
i changed to fit into your world but i still feel very awkward whenever i see you .
i cant tell you how long i had misses you .
i cant ask for a warm hug .
i must be your somebody to talk to you .

ALL in ALL
i've done my best .
be it over or not isnt important .
i dont wanna let go but ...
i guess it's happier for you to get hold onto who you want .
all the best

going dentist now .
* frightened !*

TATA

1:13 PM

i had a very bad sensation on my tooth - and tt's wisdom tooth .
i'm pretty irritated by the fact tt i had this sharp pain on my tooth every now and then especially when i am having my meals .
during afternoon my fever start to hit me .
blurish as i am , i still hang on and work till the last minutes .
the long awaiting announcement was made for the store to be close .
oh god !!! i forgot to clock out .
by the time i realise i am alr inside train a few stop to my house .
DAMN .

predict to have extraction tomorrow .
hopefully i can eliminates surgery .
cos i dont wish to be so free !
jus wanna be busy and earn money .
no work no money .
got time also no use .


i'm still hiding away from fact that he already leaves me
sarang haeyo AZWJ .
hais .
if love can fades why mine cant fade ?

11:57 PM

HAPPY VESAK DAY ! (:

just woke up from my early sleep ytd night [x
super lethargic aft my training
but i am glad i learnt alot throu the training .
now i know beauty isnt tt simple .
inside and outside maintenance is so so important x.X

having the heart to help Bb celebrate his ord but physically it jus pull me to sleep , kinda sad but i also don wish to hinder so much .
however, i am duper happy for BB's ORD ! waited this date with him effing long alr
now he has his freedom to outside word with his pink IC @ his wallet .

currently i am contented with my on-going life .
thou tiring but i wanna keep this going .

i dont know why Bb's friends wanna seperate us .
maybe i am not a good girl to them when they first look at me .
or simply because they dont know what we go through .

but nevermind . no one is truely perfect .
many people know ,but they still uncontented with their assets .
gradually making everything as complicated as it can be .
is this the life for many ?

i still hope i wont greed for more . i wanna stay contented .
and i wanna say i love
MY FAMILY
MY FRIENDS
MY COLLEAGUES
&
Bb

(:

wish everyone around me my readers to stay happy .
lastly ,
Bb CONGRATS uh ..

11:43 AM

talk to me
you speak with me
don′t sink before you rise baby
don′t fade away
you hesitate
you seem t wait
for all the time we had
feels like world away
who′s to say
we′ll be ok
we will make it through the night
don′t wanna wake up in this state
i just want us both to smile
cause we′re the same
and i khow that we′ll never change
look i bought your favourite ice cream
i don′t wanna see it melt away
if you walk out now
i don′t know it we′re gonna be the same
baby just talk with me
the memories
the things we did
are locked inside my heart
we′re i know i want forget
who′s to say
we′ll be ok
we will make it through the night
don′t wanna wake up in this state
i just want us both to smile
cause we′re the same
and i know that we′ll nver change
loo i bought your favourite ice cream
i don′t wanna see it melt away
if you walk out now
i don′t know if we′re gonna be the same
baby just talk with me
cause i want you to stay here with me
cause i want you to stay here with me

12:50 AM

shocked.
temperature taking @ cdc
surprised to see a masked man askin me to swipe my hair so that he can point something @ my forehead .
like ZZZ .back from driving .
instructor was damn humourous really made my driving a really pleasant one .
an hour forty mins gone by a few rounds of driving .
BRAKING , i swear i gonna master it right by tommorrow .
i make a new friend.
it's a 19 year old girl .
on my way to the bus stop she told me her dad was fetching her home when i asked her " hey you not going home ".
so fortunate lor i was thinking
no one in my house drive .
instructor asked me do my boyfriend drive i was like smiling ...
how i wish i can learn from him
but he's too busy and he might not have tt patient to teach me
he always got better things to do
futher more i am a slow learner , i dont wish to pissed him off .
):
i miss him
tears cant drown my sorrows away .


stomach giving me problems .
right now i am suffering the miserable cramps
have problem typing and texting

OYASUMI NASAI ..
sayonara :D

10:19 PM