i ought to be stronger .
i needa prove .
the most challenging is to overcome everything even myself .
i not going to plunge anymore further .
a failure isnt always a failure .
i need to find out the value in myself .
to glow is not to hide .
i will not hide anymore .
being independent and alone isnt tt bad . for ,at least i am overcoming it now .
in due time . i would stop being dependence
eliminate my kid " mindset "
everyone is selfish .
i'm evolving to one to ( do i have a choice ? i wonder .)
isit becaue i m not living in a world full of passionate and kind people
i dont understand why everyone is comparing .
the one i love most , my parents .
they are comparing also .
it's okay. seriously .
comparing is improving .
stress is nothing to them cos it's only on the suface .
but they wont understand they are causing an impact to me .
i m losing my naive-ness
and gradually, i cant be one anymore .
those who ask me not to live in my own fairytale world , u hv no wrong actually
my thinking are too simple , it's bringing me nowhere
i need to be brave
i learnt alot , everytime i fall i start to gain some experience .
every fall seems to tell me something
i shall learn every single bit of them and be sucessful .
wrong concept, mayb .
but im still trying (:

i cant care anymore .
i need not be push to walk an inch .
i shall walk alone .
bravely and confidently .
and jus be myself .
i'm tired for chaging myself to suit one's world .
i tried very hard seriuosly to find a comfort zone .
but everywhere seems umcomfort to me .

i tear easily , i dont know why.
a small lil setback , a break up , touching scene in drama & movie
i tear .
the more i need to be in someone embrace , the more i sense no one is there to hold me .
i am sorry , it's my nature .
tt doesnt mean i m weak (:

achieving goal , earn as much money now is my goal .
and of cos MAKE UP and skincare is still my forte .
i would like to touch on tt .
i wan everyone to be as pretty as possible .
you know in this world u cant afford to be lazy .
LOOK is everything , for at least the most basic thing u must have apart from having a good personality .

as far as i know my grandma need someone to take care now .
she'll be occupying my house real soon .
i dont mind actually .
my house will be more crowded (:
i dont know how would it be like ..
i might be sharing room with my bro and i shall say goodbye to my queen size bed .
been sleeping in luxury for this eight years time .
it's time for some hardship .
GAMBATTE JOANNE . ( encouraging myself , HAHA )

emotion really trigger me alot .
i shall not let that affect me .
i guess i need enough strength to combat all these

24hr after my operation , my jaw really swollen .
shocked when i look intio mirror .

i've learnt alot through training and how skin functions .
i enjoy learning .
(:

god telling me i am getting better .

konichiwa gozaimasu ,
nice day everyone .

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